Wrapping up 2011 was bittersweet. I had a good end to my first semester and had a great time going back to NY for the holidays. It’s hard to come and go no matter what the circumstances and I’m hoping it gets easier as the years go by. I was very fortunate to get to spend time with many old friends and family with out feeling too pressured. It was amazing to get together with the girls and go to Madison’s varsity swim meet!! Of course it is never enough time but it also felt good knowing I was headed back to Florida soon. I had the pleasure of having TJ and Maddy spend Christmas Eve with me. It feels so great to keep the connection with both of them. I had the opportunity to invite Maddy back to my new home with me for the week. She got to experience lots of new things including flying for the first time. Although we will always have our moments it was great to give her a feel for my new life. As the new year rang in I struggled with so many conflicting feelings. I struggle with enjoying my new life when some of the people I love the most have to be left behind. I’m working on continuing distant relationships but it definitely is challenging sometimes. I hope I can find peace with in myself and look forward to my future. I sure do love Florida. I will be glad to finish college and move on to a career that is one thing for sure.
I’m going to try to return to this blog and kind of use it as an outlet right now. This has become an emotional period for me right now but I still struggle with reaching out. Hopefully writing and being able to see my own progress will help make this a great year full of new opportunities.
-Courtney
Fearing the new year but looking forward to opportunities in the distance.
